Everything's screwed up. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck my life.
I'm indecisive. I want you but I want you to be happier too. I'm not sure what I did is right or wrong. I don't know what to do now. Both came at same time, and now leaving at the same time too? What about me? Because of my reckless decision. I really regret. I'm sad too. Broken. Distance. Time. Words. Me. You. Never. Again. I should be responsible for my choice.
I know your feelings have faded, and you hate me. I have nobody but myself to blame. I'm living in fear. I even said those things this afternoon. Probably all I have is one month, to see you again.
I just forget, just like you did. Forget. I tried already..You just don't know how I feel, When you neglect me. I can only see your back, getting smaller and smaller and disappear. Only time will tell.
I want to know how you feel. Zero lies. There's stuffs where I don't know how to do or what's right. You used to tell me how to do this or help me. But not anymore.
I told myself, it's over. Nothing's gonna change the fact that his feelings wasn't there anymore. But I'm still hopelessly waiting. Day dream throughout lessons. No appetite to eat. Very tired.
Tired of everything. I don't have the courage. Because nothing seems to go right.
Hais. I'm sorry.