I don't know what you're thinking about. You don't even tell me everything. The distance between us is getting bigger. I bet nobody like this feeling. You don't like it too right, when I don't tell you anything? After so much that had happen, I'm just afraid to trust again. Cause every time I'll be the one being lied to. No matter what, it's always me, getting hurt again and again. Can't blame me right. Hate me for not trusting me, It's okay. I'm so tired of trying. I'm so tired of trying to smile. I'm always doing things you won't do. I thought that would make you feel happier or whatever. But I realized that didn't make me any happier cause I wasn't treated the way I wanted to. It's not good to take things for granted.

Now the person I'm close to, the person who is like my brother, the person who will cheer me up said.. not to contact anymore. Until I make up my mind. But what can I do? It's not only up to me. I don't know what to do. Stuck in between. Who can I go to when I cry? Who to talk to in the middle of the night? Who to give me suggestions and clear my thoughts? Because I'm so used to you being there for me no matter what. Look what's happening now. Within a few month, people change drastically. Have to get by, living like this. No matter what, I'm not gonna cry anymore. Leave, leave leave. One by one, happy leaving. I'm not gonna care anymore. Seriously, this feeling sucks. You don't know how it feels like cause you're not me.

Was shocked because of what she said yesterday night. Didn't thought she would be like this. Because of you she's in trouble. Because of what you said made her change her mind. Because of your selfish attitude. Look what you've done now, it's been a thousand year since I heard her cry so badly. She's always so brave yet she cried on the phone just now. Can't blame anybody. I hope everything will be all right for youuuuuuu.

School, was ok.. Got used to it. Gonna start studying, doing homework, don't sleep in class and stop disturbing my partner. Feel so so tired these few days, like lack of sleep. Then in the morning need to rush. Fuck. Singaporean children life. So sian de. Plus CCA is compulsory for after school. I'm so jealous of Jasper. He's Cca is counted as one school say. Wtf. Plus he can see angmoh around. :( BUT. Yay it's FRIDAY. So happy, time flies so fast. I'm gonna be busy. Which is goooooooooood. Weeeheee. I miss everybody who treat me good. LOL.