You put on a show, really had me going. It's hard to trust again. After times of disappointment. I dont know how to trust. I don't know how to tell you that everything's gonna be alright, that I am not upset or whatever. Tried to be happy today, but it feels so difficult just to smile. I hate faking a smile. It's because I don't want you to think that I'm not okay. I don't want you to blame yourself. I thought I can forget, I thought that since today should be a happy day for us I should just forget. Haha. I'm sorry. I fail in the end. I couldn't. I thought we'll be better but the so called happiness is a fairytale. Even though we're happy now but this will not be forever. I thought I could forget what I see but I couldn't. Sorry for being selfish. I can't cause I'm not good enough to forget. Every time when we're close, I have the same feeling again. Like the same thing will happen again. Whatever you do, nothing will change. Even a thousand care from you. I find myself keeping a distance from you. I promise myself not to cry, crying will only make things worse. My love hasn't changed, its the fault of time. Maybe we are apart for too long.